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Lament

from Finding San José by Cellista

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I picked a loop I had composed late at night, when I was suffering from my usual bout of insomnia. The cello is out-of-tune, and the recording is simply a 1/4" into my loop station, and dragged out to Garageband. Layered with my own voice over.

And it's just simple, a lullaby-like feel that gives a nod to the overall sense of nostalgia that I am prone to get from time to time.

Some ponticello ghost whispers, and a little melodic contour.

San Jose these past couple year has felt like less and less of a safe space to take creative risks. Or else I feel afraid of taking risks. Like Ferlinghetti's poem, I feel like if I could fully tell my truth I'd risk absurdity.

Or else I just feel hollow right now. I'm not sure. Being a witness to oneself is terrifying.

I just want San Jose to feel like it did before. When I first moved here. 

This want feels the same as when I hit adolescence and I just wanted to be a child again. Because it was easier then. 

But San Jose

I love you

I love you

I love you



I love you

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Lament
by Cellista

We gazed ahead and past what was there
I saw you, a beacon of light in a crowd
We are already here
I am confessing
This is my home.

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from Finding San José, released September 21, 2016

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Cellista Los Angeles, California

Cellista's penchant for performing music in unconventional spaces, and her devotion to collaborating with artists across mediums has led her to create unique performances that incorporate elements of classical music, improvisation, and visual art.

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